Keeping it together...

OK, time to come clean. I have been slacking on the diet front. I kicked up the exercise a notch, and that probably messed up my diet big time.

I need to start listening to my body again. That was my biggest struggle, and what had the biggest impact on my health. It's hard to ignore the cravings that I have. It took me a couple of years to make progress on getting rid of those, and now I am back starting to get them again.

I am still pretty hopeful for the future; I am feeling good and much healthier.

One of the things I've found is that sometimes I will avoid going out because I am afraid of all of the junk I will eat/drink. The truth is that in social situations I usually hold it together pretty well. It's probably because there are a lot of people around and I feel guilty about digging in to junk. It may also be because there is a lot to do and I don't need to eat out of boredom.

Either way I need to focus on building good relationships with friends and spending quality time with people. I also need to work on my relationship with food again (or, as always).

Back in the swing...

I'm getting back in the swing of things. I am still having issues with avoiding the treats at night, but I am back into a healthier state of mind overall.

I've gone to the last 3 gym sessions in a row (Friday, Monday, Wednesday) and can already tell that I feel better and happier as a result.

Last night I went to a climbing gym for the first time in a couple of years. I've only gone a handful of times, but it felt really good and fun to do something active and challenging after work. I think I will start going there regularly, or at least keep it as an option.

I still have a lot of work to do in terms of being productive at home and keeping my motivation to go to the gym and do the things that make me happy.

Overall, I'm very encouraged and looking forward to the future.

I'm also thinking about what I can do with this blog, or some blog. I feel like I need something in my life, and I enjoy researching and analyzing, so why not make a blog that's a sounding board of ideas and thoughts that I have, as well as a reason to dig a little deeper and get more information and detail about the things that interest me....

Adios!

Finding some more meaning..

Lately I have really been needing something more fulfilling in my life.

I have been trying to keep up with the healthy regime, but I've noticed that it's mostly a mental game. When I stop going to the gym for a little while, I start to get lazy and when the alarm goes off, I consider, then hit snooze for an hour.

I think I need to take some time to look inside and find a way to engage myself in life a little more.

Work is good, I enjoy what I do more or less, but I need something else. I have always been very involved in things and now I have work, tv, sleep, rinse, repeat. I am trying to find ways to get more involved and to kick up my interest in things. I just got into such a rut it's kind of disappointing.

Anyway, on the health front, I have been pretty bad about going to the gym. I made it Friday and I hope to start going regularly again. It's light out when I have to walk to the gym in the morning so that will definitely help things. I am also considering changing up my schedule a bit since the early gym sessions just haven't been happening.

Food wise I've also been pretty lax recently. I got a little busier with work and a little lazier and haven't been making lunches lately. I also think I need to take the time for a real breakfast every morning. Otherwise I get home and I eat way too much junk.

Adios

Daily Update 1/17/13

Breakfast - was hungry! success... 2 slices bacon, 2 eggs, half clementine, double espresso with some almond milk.
Feeling like a lot more energy and not as icky stomach. Lack of gluten combined with all of the nutrient rich CSA goodies I got last night??

Lunch - salami and cheese and an apple yum

Dinner - steak, apple, tangerine, sweet potato, lettuce, guac, raisins, pumpkin pale granola

After dinner wasn't hungry but wanted to snarf some chocolate and almond butter. Staying strong!

Daily Update 1/16

Morning workout - woke up, but not happening

Breakfast - coffee & 3 half and half mini moo's (~30kcal)
Started to feel hungry around 11:50am
Lunch - ~1pm, at the burrito place. Got fish and guac, with some lettuce, radishes, carrots on the side.
Very filling and very delish. Avoided the rice and tortillas (success!)
Dinner - grass fed flank steak cooked in coconut oil, fresh apple, kiwi, blood orange, jicama, carrots, lettuce. yum yum yum!

avoiding the auto-snacking now....

Time to kick it up a notch...

I really need to figure out how to maintain my motivation and stick to my diet plans.

I have been trying to stick to paleo but doing really poorly with treats that are around.

I've decided to start blogging nightly with a brief blurb about how the day went. Hopefully this will serve as a record of what I ate and how I felt after it.

Today -
workout - no am workout, some walking at night

bfast - 2 eggs, 2 slices canadian bacon
lunch - salad with ground beef, avocado, strawberries, bbq sauce. Afterwords had a snickers and hershey bar and felt like CRAP! Big no-no there.
dinner - really good lettuce, chicken, fajita veggies, guacamole, sweet potato fries. yum yum yum.
Topped it off with some dark chocolate and ice cream cookies (WHY??)

Here's to tomorrow being a bit better!