OK, time to come clean. I have been slacking on the diet front. I kicked up the exercise a notch, and that probably messed up my diet big time.
I need to start listening to my body again. That was my biggest struggle, and what had the biggest impact on my health. It's hard to ignore the cravings that I have. It took me a couple of years to make progress on getting rid of those, and now I am back starting to get them again.
I am still pretty hopeful for the future; I am feeling good and much healthier.
One of the things I've found is that sometimes I will avoid going out because I am afraid of all of the junk I will eat/drink. The truth is that in social situations I usually hold it together pretty well. It's probably because there are a lot of people around and I feel guilty about digging in to junk. It may also be because there is a lot to do and I don't need to eat out of boredom.
Either way I need to focus on building good relationships with friends and spending quality time with people. I also need to work on my relationship with food again (or, as always).