Keeping it together...

OK, time to come clean. I have been slacking on the diet front. I kicked up the exercise a notch, and that probably messed up my diet big time.

I need to start listening to my body again. That was my biggest struggle, and what had the biggest impact on my health. It's hard to ignore the cravings that I have. It took me a couple of years to make progress on getting rid of those, and now I am back starting to get them again.

I am still pretty hopeful for the future; I am feeling good and much healthier.

One of the things I've found is that sometimes I will avoid going out because I am afraid of all of the junk I will eat/drink. The truth is that in social situations I usually hold it together pretty well. It's probably because there are a lot of people around and I feel guilty about digging in to junk. It may also be because there is a lot to do and I don't need to eat out of boredom.

Either way I need to focus on building good relationships with friends and spending quality time with people. I also need to work on my relationship with food again (or, as always).

Back in the swing...

I'm getting back in the swing of things. I am still having issues with avoiding the treats at night, but I am back into a healthier state of mind overall.

I've gone to the last 3 gym sessions in a row (Friday, Monday, Wednesday) and can already tell that I feel better and happier as a result.

Last night I went to a climbing gym for the first time in a couple of years. I've only gone a handful of times, but it felt really good and fun to do something active and challenging after work. I think I will start going there regularly, or at least keep it as an option.

I still have a lot of work to do in terms of being productive at home and keeping my motivation to go to the gym and do the things that make me happy.

Overall, I'm very encouraged and looking forward to the future.

I'm also thinking about what I can do with this blog, or some blog. I feel like I need something in my life, and I enjoy researching and analyzing, so why not make a blog that's a sounding board of ideas and thoughts that I have, as well as a reason to dig a little deeper and get more information and detail about the things that interest me....

Adios!

Finding some more meaning..

Lately I have really been needing something more fulfilling in my life.

I have been trying to keep up with the healthy regime, but I've noticed that it's mostly a mental game. When I stop going to the gym for a little while, I start to get lazy and when the alarm goes off, I consider, then hit snooze for an hour.

I think I need to take some time to look inside and find a way to engage myself in life a little more.

Work is good, I enjoy what I do more or less, but I need something else. I have always been very involved in things and now I have work, tv, sleep, rinse, repeat. I am trying to find ways to get more involved and to kick up my interest in things. I just got into such a rut it's kind of disappointing.

Anyway, on the health front, I have been pretty bad about going to the gym. I made it Friday and I hope to start going regularly again. It's light out when I have to walk to the gym in the morning so that will definitely help things. I am also considering changing up my schedule a bit since the early gym sessions just haven't been happening.

Food wise I've also been pretty lax recently. I got a little busier with work and a little lazier and haven't been making lunches lately. I also think I need to take the time for a real breakfast every morning. Otherwise I get home and I eat way too much junk.

Adios