Beginning again..

So, it's obviously been awhile since I posted here. I need to get back into it. I have a new job, new apartment, new city, living with my girlfriend, and things are just going great. Except for the weight.

Yup, you guessed it, with all the changes and the lack of time, I haven't gotten into a good healthy routine. I've gained about 25 pounds from my lowest point, and about 20 from where I was feeling good about myself and comfortable. I've begun feeling just gross and unhealthy.

It didn't all come on at once, though the last 5 months saw the bulk of it. It started slow, with less working out, less paying attention.

Recently I've been noticing I am out of shape, and doing less about it. I am eating some healthy food and some unhealthy food. I'm going to the gym a few days a week. Overall, it seems like a decent compromise. But, I've just been cramming food in my face a few nights a week. That is my biggest problem.

I eat fine during the day, big healthy breakfast and reasonable lunch. Then I get home, I'm not really that hungry, but I stuff my face. And then I finish, and I realize there are more snacks in the kitchen, and I stuff my face some more.

It's a lot more difficult because I'm living with my girlfriend so all of our food is communal. I can't just ignore all of the candy in the pantry and all of the chips. I end up gorging on it, like, every night.

So anyway, I think the first step is accepting what I've done to myself. Like it or not, I weigh 205 lbs now, not 195 like I key in to the cardio machines. And I'm feeling more and more gross and unable to move the same way I used to.

I want to start tracking again, start being present in my eating, and get back to enjoying eating healthy and not stuffing my face for no reason.